Worst case?

I had too much banked on the event it seems. More than I knew myself. I was waiting for it the whole week but when I came to it I froze, could not talk casually more than a couple of minutes. I ended up showing that I was the last interested whereas it was the opposite.

She seemed to enjoy the evening, but that's it. I ended up shaking hands at the end like usual. I have turned into a corporate worker who is no longer a person. I talk to people like I'm taking to a colleague in office boundaries.

Even at the time of writing this, I could feel the condition getting worse. Thinking has such an effect it is unbelievable.

But if that is the case, is the opposite also true. Can happy thoughts turn it around? I don't know I'll need to fish for them first. Will it all be resolved after reaching someday? I can only hope.